Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I have to claim full marks in being obedient. If I do not become obedient, I cannot climb onto Baba’s heart.I ask myself everyday: Why have I come to Baba? Baba made me sit in His lap. He gave me nectar and made me a garland around His neck. Nectar makes me sweet. These are blessings and also medicine for me.
Each Dadi has their own speciality. Each one with their bhavna served every corner of Bharat. Everyone does service, but who has brought about the deep transformation that should be taking place in us?
I have to be very attentive to the self, service and relationships. What is my relationship with Baba and with my brothers and sisters? The new creation of today (Baba’s new children) has the experience of service, but who has the deep experience of the effort that we made in the early days - of tyag (renunciation), tapasya and service? These things were ground into us from the early days.
In my vision and attitude, there should be no consciousness of ‘my’ - ‘my centre’, ‘my students’, etc. Instead just ‘my Baba’? Do I really have that feeling?
In the beginning, we used to keep the picture of Brahma, Vishnu and Shankar in front of us. Brahma - the aim: I have to become this. Shankar had the aim to do tapasya. Vishnu reminded us of our perfection.
We brought Baba into our lives. Brahma Baba demonstrated what we had to do by bringing knowledge into his practical life. Have I brought knowledge into my life in the way that Brahma Baba did? I have to be perfect in these three things – self, service and relationships. Then I can say I have brought knowledge into my life.
Honesty makes me into noora ratan (a jewel of the eyes). Only then can I become part of the 8. If I have not made effort in this way, I have not done any service at all. We have to live as serviceable ones. We have to become real gold which can be melted. God has melted me with His love.
Throughout the day, I must never feel that I do not have time to make effort. Knowledge should keep trickling in my intellect - otherwise, ‘insects’ of other things will constantly be pulling it. I should have only Baba in my mind and nothing else. I have to be manmanabhav. If I have other things in my thoughts, I will not be able to spin the discus of self-realisation.
It is not my job to listen to or speak about anything else. The spiritual laws are now very severe, very strong. I should not be engaged in the activity of pardarshan (looking at others) and parchintan (thinking about others). There is difference of day and night between swadarshan (looking at the self) and pardarshan (looking at others). If I am engaged in this, I will not be able to sit in Baba’s lap. If I swing in the swing of knowledge, I will be able to forget all consciousness of everything else.
This is the stage I should have. I do not want Baba to please me superficially. I have to remember Baba and the inheritance, and feel Baba to be my Friend, then I will experience His companionship very easily. I should have Baba in both my eyes. It is a big mistake to shed tears for any reason. If anyone had any tears, Baba would say: ‘Are you a widow?’ It is when an old man loses his wife or children lose their mother that one would have tears.
My mirror of my heart should be clean. My thoughts, words and actions should be elevated. My life should be like a mirror through which Baba can be seen and revealed.
Om shanti
