Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Om Shanti and lots of loving greetings from London..
Sometimes when I am caught up in the middle of everything happening around me, I don't always realise how much I have absorbed. It is only after stepping back, reflecting on it and processing, I realise what I have actually absorbed and learnt. I would like to share this with you of what I have learnt from your visit and presence this time and I would like to deeply embrace that in my life too:
1. Your love and connection with Baba draws others close to Baba. I am working on how my love for Baba should draw others to Baba - that is the greatest service I can ever do.
2. Your purity acts as a fort for us and it is a safety net. I feel very very safe and secured around you, because of your depth of wisdom, power, experience, maturity and love filled in you. Your energy and power holds the family together, because you are always lost in Baba's remembrance.
3. There is nothing in your heart, except Baba, Murli and Madhuban (Yagya)..You have a laser vision of going deep into a soul, recognising the speciality of that soul and enabling that soul to see it and recognise it for them self. This is what you have done to me this time. This time, I feel there has been a deep reconciliation between us, one which was needed and this has helped me to build on a stronger and closer relation or bond with you, that which I have always wanted. One without dependency and attachment but one where there is pure love, trust and faith, through which I feel empowered.
4. I know I did not get much of a chance to spend as much time with you that I would have liked to, yet, the little moments that I did spend with you, they have been deeply imprinted in my heart and whatever you have shared with me personally, has been noted in the chit(memory-track) of the soul deeply. I go deeper into the meaning of what you have shared with me, everyday and bring it practically in my life, paying attention to it.
5. I have learnt a lot more through observing your behaviour and responses to people and situations, than through words this time. Perhaps because I was detached and more observant and I was clear in the intellect, that I could catch it.
6. Amrit velas in the house have been the best and very powerful, after a very long time. I used to automatically wake up at 2 or 2.30am as I know you must be waking up at that time and giving out sakaash ..Is that right Dadi? The days that you were here felt like I was in a different space of time - my days were very light and easy and magical yet powerful - never felt any obstacles in the way and if any did come, they never touched me.
7. There was never a second that passed by that you did not give - you gave yourself fully - your thoughts, time, power, good wishes, whatever the soul needed, no matter who came your way.
8. Lastly but not the least, heartfelt thank you for filling this soul with a lot of love - love filled with Baba's Power and Current..that which still makes my eyes water.. that has healed many wounds of the past that I have been carrying in my heart - now nothing of the past remains in my chit - absolutely nothing..it is almost like I am going onto the next stage of my journey - perhaps in the higher class now..the biggest lesson you have taught me is that of being in my self respect, no matter what..!
My return of love to you can only be through my own behaviour and character to mirror the vision Baba holds for me and what you hold for me..I am working on it and I will become that..
Thank you Dadi for being you..!
